Work comp unexpectedly cut my pay benefit because ‘the system wasnt set up to deal with someone who works they way you do so they cant figure out how to pay you’ (essentially I was self employed but since I worked in the film industry, I was hired like a contract worker – as all film industry people are – so I was technically working for a producton company)
They say they dont know how I should be paid. As a result of the pay cut, I now make less than what my monthly rent is. I literally have to choose between having food to eat or a roof over my head…lets not even discuss utilities, miscellaneous expenses related to the crps that work comp refuses to cover – like the fact that since I can not drive currently I have to pay for rides anywhere I may need to go – bills in relation to the care of my companion animals who I can assure you I would be dead today without as they’re pretty much the only live beings I see for months on end sometimes and are basically the only source of any joy I have these days. As well as clothing (which I need because I cannot tolerate the feel of anythin touching my leg)…I could go on and on…
I have no family to speak of to rely on and am basically on my own. I was very independent before I was injured. This of course forced me to apply for food stamps. I was denied because I was told I make too much! Seriously?!?! I dont even make $700 A MONTH on work comp at this point! I have now been forced FAR BELOW the poverty line and it seems that there are no actual resources for people in my sitch.
Currently the only food I have access to is (literally) a couple of cups of dried beans, about a cup and a half of rice, 1/2 cup of almond milk. I hate asking for help like I said I have always been independent and self sufficient, but now I am goin to have to figure out how to get the help I desperately need…with zero resources to look at.
The stress and worry that seems to keep building and is never ending only makes me hurt worse.
There are lots of ways CRPS makes people hurt. some people hurt 24 /7 some people do OK and then have pain spikes I hurt 24 /7 and I have pain spikes so I sorta have the worst of both worlds in my opinion. I have been largely without treatment for about a year and I’ve been without medication for about a year as well since the medication makes me sick I am literally without any relief ever and I just don’t know how to deal with this anymore on top of all this BS from workmans comp. I’m just not sure my life is worth living at this point. I’m a tough girl I would never do anything that would be permanent if you know what I’m saying but I do see the benefit in not being around anymore. At least the pain would stop and I wouldn’t have to worry about how im going to survive day to day because I have no way to make money and the corruption of the policies of the governor of my state just makes things worse.
I’m told that the governor has hired one person who gets paid exclusively in tax payer funds (to the tune of over $200K) to rubber-stamp denied on every single workmans comp claim and all the work comp judges defer to him – so no matter what happens no matter how much you’re right no matter how much you deserve it – doesn’t matter that you paid into the system and by the way that’s what the workmans comp insurance is for you’re automatically going to be denied and because work comp is its own court system (for lack of a better description) there is no higher court to appeal to for justice. It is a very corrupt and broken system and desperately needs to be reevaluated.
It is a shame and just goes to show how how little our government and politicians really care about their constituents and really only care about lining their own damn pockets.
Tonight is the 10th night in a row I find myself unable to sleep. Yesterday I did nap for about 25 minutes before pain spikes in my leg and back woke me, but 25 minutes in days and days just doesn’t cut it.
Ok serously rant over…im going to see if I can find a destaction…